I think it would be an exaggeration to say it has been a while. I got busy with life, trying to get a higher education, constantly looking for a better job and now…well honestly I was exhausted. I don’t think it really started to sink in till covid hit and well it didn’t get better from there for a lot of personal reasons.
After that, I ended up losing my biggest digital collection of my work to a disk drive failure while I was transferring to a new PC. Stuff that I had well had since I was in high school. I did keep a lot of the sketches, but the idea of having to go through them and scan them was daunting. A lot of others impressions of an artist hinges on the bulk of our work too.
I was depressed about it to the point where I couldn’t draw beyond personal things. Even though I wasn’t doing my best to publicize those works, their loss made me all too keenly aware that anything I did, could just be gone in an instant.
I think the only thing that pulled me back out of that, was the realization no matter what I did: time always marches forward. Everything lives and turns to dust in time. I’ve often said drawing is a moment captured in time, but even the medium it is captured in will be forever fleeting. Even digital works have to live in a physical medium.
But loss can only take so much. I know how to draw still, I even tried something new when I started streaming games for a friend after covid ended. Through that I picked up 3D modeling again and customized my own 3D avatar. I’d later even make a PNG virtual avatar. I even got so far out of my slump I remixed a song and did my own cover of it.
I even came back to this site and realized I still disliked short form social media and still deeply felt I didn’t have a centralized home. So, I’m finally putting it all back together. This site will continue to be my personal blog and central unit for all my online activities. I’ll showcase my best work on it and then use my Tumblr for my bulk art posts.
My creative well is far from dead, and if the world needs proof of my existence: I’ll keep striving to do that no matter what it throws at me.
And this time: I want anyone who ends up here, to see this living proof of my existence and my dreams.
-I am DaiTigris,
and I exist in this moment of time.
